Sunday, October 18, 2009

Helping Orphans

There are two less orphans in this world...in this video....Beck and Deshi are shown twice, look for their sweet dancing. And please look into your heart to see what YOU can do to help orphans still without families.

As for us....people are wondering how we are doing....when/if we will keep blogging....I never have been much of a writer....and life has been....well....very hard lately. And this current transition has been challenging.....90% beautiful and lovely but 10% very very exhaustingly hard....we are trying and learning and progressing and we are committed.....but it is physically and emotionally exhausting....I have told some that I felt very well trained and prepared for the expectations of adoption....but the one big surprise has been my own reaction....I expected myself to have more patience and grace and...love than I have had over the last few months....I have learned a lot, including how to lean daily on the Lord who is the source of all grace and love. If this all sounds like one big mystery...I am sorry...maybe I will get back to blogging one day soon:)

Things really could not be any better....considering the huge transition we all are going through. We are so very thankful for all of our children, our family and the life the Lord has given us.

5 comments:

Tanya said...

I have struggled with the same thing....and not proud to have to admit it. I was completely not expecting my own reactions and mixed emotions. But things are SLOWLY getting better. LOVE & GRACE for us mere humans takes time & commitment....even for moms. Continue to lean on God and His unconditional love & grace for us. I am trying as well. Praying that for you and your family. Baby steps....

P.S.--Loved that video! Will try to post it on my blog as well.

mama becca said...

I thought those were your beauties!
I have a really hard time with transitions, so I totally understand where you're coming from. I, too, feel like MY reactions to changes are more surprising than anything else that happens. Regardless, that's hard to handle when you have to take care of kids depending on you, right??? hang in there... we love the fournet family! yall rock!
love
becca

Lori S said...

AMEN!!! We wait and pray and hope and dream and then...reality!! A good but hard reality!! Exhausting, trying, wonderful, frustrating, joyful!! So many emotions! Know that you are not alone!!!

Nikki said...

I sooo get what you are saying! I, too, have been extremely caught off guard at my emotions and adjustments. I thought we were as prepared and trained as possible for this adoption, but, somehow missed the training about what adjustment would look like in me.

I don't know when I last posted, and wonder how long we'll keep the blog up. I keep thinking I'll type this big update post, but can't seem to find the time or energy. Maybe someday!

Thinking of you guys!

Kimberly Baggett said...

natalie...
you are definitely not alone...there are so many who walk this same path with you...before you and after you...please know your feelings and experiences and expectations have been shared by more families than you think.....i promise you the questions and frustrations and difficult times lessen as your bonding slowly grows (and i promise it will!!!)

i have so struggled with the same things and emotions and saddened by the realization that i am not the wonderful woman or emotionally giving mother i thought i was (i mean, how could i be when i wasn't feeling the "warm fuzzies" all the time that i once did when we first met them or even the first few weeks, right?)....as i walked this journey being home with our little ones, the Lord showed me just how much i needed Him at ALL times and how i cannot do anything without His grace and love and patience working IN me and then allowing His attributes to trickle through me to my precious children....many times, the trickle was more like a delayed, slight drip! ha!

...these times are what make the bond so sweet, i promise! it is a process..a very slooooooow process, but you are a wonderfully loving and nurturing mommy who will come out on the other side with a beautifully rich and healthy bond with your babies!

and always remember that His mercies are new every morning!! i will continue to blanket your sweet family in prayer!

you are doing a great job!!