Thinking about this month, feeling lots of mixed and bittersweet emotions. We have LOTS of birthdays this month...including Beau-and B and Y who are turning 2!! Beau and I will celebrate our 13th anniversary!!! School is out next week.....I am soooo excited, love summers with my kids! My little brother is getting married next weekend to a beautiful girl inside and out, so I am getting a wonderful new SIL. We have our 9th court date on May 22nd but do not have good news or the needed document as we approach that day.....SAD! May 21st will mark 1 year since our referral....I NEVER thought we would still be waiting....WOW! Every night I tell Beau....I don't think I can keep doing this....this waiting....this longing to be a Mommy to all my babies. But each day I wake up and keep doing it....waiting, praying, living, hoping for a phone call that will end this season of waiting. We are thinking of a vacation at the end of May...sunshine, escaping and relaxing.
I lift my eyes to you,
O God, enthroned in heaven.
We keep looking to the Lord our God for his mercy...
Have mercy on us, Lord, have mercy,
for we have had our fill of contempt.
We have had more than our fill of the scoffing of the proud...